Book of "Failures" (1.1) - smaller (2019-2021)

Continuation of Section I:

7/16/19: The vices that currently have a strong grasp on my discipline are (note to self: Mercury is in retrograde):

• Being late to work (8:10-8:15 instead of 8:00 am)
• "It's better to be 1 hour early than 1 minute late." It doesn't help that my co-workers show up late and that there are no consequential effects from the big man. No excuse for this but I am just being observant of my environment.
• Lack of the completion of my morning routine
• Inability to wake at 5 in the morning --> due to the inability to go to bed earlier every night
• Not having the utmost confidence during difficult conversations (I do a good job but I can and want to do much better.
• Letting go. Letting go of those things outside of my control and being at peace with them

11/21/19:

• When having the much needed conversation I've been striving to have with Bella and Eddie, I realized that there is no need to ever hold the truth back. Be fully honest. At all times. It will allow for liberation and free living because of it
• "Transparency allows for opportunity of truthfulness, receiving and giving without exception to what can be." (AJD III)
• I'm loving my failures in life right now. I hit a breakthrough with being open, transparent, and honest. My burn rate for money is running low and I am transitioning the business. I have so much to learn and I AM SO DAMN EXCITED ABOUT ALL OF IT.
• Remember that, intention, consistency, following your intuition, and transparency create waves of positive effects. Keep living and learning Ant.
• Make sure to take time to organize your thoughts and recoup yourself. This is a big transition time for you. Time to make some noise and spread more of my light.

12/11/19:

• Staying up all night to study for a final and being late to work. I felt flustered that day (obviously because I had a lack of sleep) but also because I saw myself in the mirror. I didn't like what I saw during that period.
• He was untruthful, non-transparent, and rushed. I am never like that…….But I am.
• The last full moon of the decade is tomorrow and before that occurs, each human was revealed something about themselves that they need to change in order to grow into their next body for 2020.
• For me it's: transparancy, belief, and acceptance (ALL STARTING FROM WITHIN)……who gives a fuck what other people think…..take a dose of your own medicine
• Impress yourself, not others.

12/29/19:

• Detaching from God for about a week while home and not making time for myself
• But in a way, this isn't a failure even though my habits fell somewhat off
• Since, I sacrificed and made a choice to prioritize family first
• However, God should never be neglected. My time with him is a must and my rejection of him showed my insecurity, fear of facing them, and more

2/13/20:

• The way I led the DB & Co original team and that I:
• Didn't have a clear vision and direction
• Didn't internal believe in what I was doing (because I didn't know exactly what I was doing)

3/5/20 (Jason @ Netflix in LA):

• Don't expect anything from others.
• Follow your intuition Anthony.
• Always ask before you expect - especially with people you don't know. Overcommunication is certainly better than under communication
• “Importance, to me, creates the energy of urgency. You should prioritize those things of importance and give them urgency instead of allowing urgent things to become important.” (David Meltzer)
• Have clarity on my intention. Ask myself, "Why is it and what is it that I'm doing?" before I do it
• "Be interested, not interesting." (David Meltzer)

Things are becoming more self oriented for me, meaning, I realized my failures aren't failures in reality. Rather, they stem from a habit or nonsconsious thought. So, I'm diving deep into the root cause of things in order to learn the most - to be the best me possible. With that in mind:

4/30/20 (driving to Philly to spend 2 days in my apartment):

• My conscious thoughts while driving revealed my nonsconscious behavior to me. A couple wrong turns, a couple negative thoughts, and eventually I was dwelling and worried about my financial burdens and my next moves, as I have to make BIG decisions soon.
• And yes, keep in mind that these thoughts only lasted for 2 hours tops. But it's that 2 hours that revealed the most. Some might see this is a small issue. I see it as the biggest goldmine of all.
• After talking with close friends in my challenge network (not planned) and myself, I realized that these thoughts were unnecessary. Comparison and worry will get me nowhere.
• Solutions (new addition to this book of failures);
• Be grateful.
• Know that my goals are bigger than these problems.
• Getting over this at a nonconscious level will allow me to be stronger for bigger obstacles ahead.
• Two quotes that I resonated at the time with were:
• "They say that a warrior is born when a man chooses his path, and accepts the suffering that comes with his choice."
• "God's will, will not take you…..where God's will cannot sustain you."
• Get strong in my mind, and if I don't deal with it myself or with God, go to my challenge network (I already have this layout set and system second nature in me).
• Control the controllable
• Never, ever underestimate the power of a laugh or smile
• I started the "Reflect, Reinforce, Rejuvenate" "Self" Evaluation that will be held on a quarterly and yearly system on the current date of 5/3/20 too.
• I unplugged for 48 hours and got inside my own dome for that alotted time period

6/26/20:

• I got scammed on eBay. I was trying to sell a bike and flip it but the one buyer that I had scammed me. He had me buy eBay gift cards and I sent them 3 preloaded eBay gift cards for $100 each. I should've know what I was getting trapped into. Ignorance is not bliss in this case because my unknowing put me in a bind.

I used money that I needed and worked for all to be taken away from me.

In a massive way, I learned a major lessons from it. Multiple actually. There are the following as goes:

• The world is tyranny (as Jordan Peterson said) so trust no one at first.
• However, I’m an optimistic person so that probably won’t stick to my blueprint
• Stop being too nice to others that don’t deserve it. It will really get you hurt bro.
• Trying to make money fast will always be a bad recipe. It leads to nothing good
• Get rich slow. That's it. That's the strategy that was known but never always intact by me.
• Be cautious of all I do and never believe anything on the Internet.
• I'm learning a lot about this world. I'm done with being kind to others who take advantage of me. I'm done doing things for others because I feel bad. That is the last toxic thought to get rid of. New 21-day program for that will be starting Monday (6/28/20)
• Solution:
• Don't trust anyone at first meeting
• Always be cautious
• Take things slow. Patience!
• Trust your gut and don't rush into things.

8/26/20:

• I must refrain from interjecting myself in certain circumstances where silence is better used and I am better left off objectively observing (uses: self-awareness, self-control, focus, understanding others, empathy, release of control)
• Applied well the next day when there was an argument between dad and zach
• I only interjected to say one thing and that one thing was powerful and planted a seed in many. It still has me thinking today. It also flowed through me. It was very much in the present moment.

9/10/20:

• Just do what you know best in this moment. Just do what is right in its own right. Let it be done. Do it well. Move on.
• Could've done a better job at ntuitively following the notion I was told about myself because I knew it was right for me - intra/entrepreneur mix (failure to trust gut note also recorded on 9/24/17 (you can't do everything at once), 3/15/18, 4/5/17
• No tech devices past 8 pm at night so I can go to bed better and easier and sooner. Good systems makes good sleep. Following your values and abide by your principles Ant. You're doing something for a reason. Don't deviate because of an excuse. (not going to bed on time, not releasing control for doing other work and doing what is best for me also recorded on 12/11/19, 10/25/17 (say "no" more often - boundaries))
• (Just to re-emphasize this was a bulleted list failure from before)
• 6/24/17: "Learn from the mistakes I write down"
• [update on 11/24/19]  DO THIS MORE

On 11/20/20, after a week of selfish, pity, bullshit thinking, I thought:

8/8/21:

🙏🏻[8/11/21] Reflecting on Learnings from the Dream BIG Marketing Recent Discussion; Team; and More

Continuation of Section I:

7/16/19: The vices that currently have a strong grasp on my discipline are (note to self: Mercury is in retrograde):

• Being late to work (8:10-8:15 instead of 8:00 am)
• "It's better to be 1 hour early than 1 minute late." It doesn't help that my co-workers show up late and that there are no consequential effects from the big man. No excuse for this but I am just being observant of my environment.
• Lack of the completion of my morning routine
• Inability to wake at 5 in the morning --> due to the inability to go to bed earlier every night
• Not having the utmost confidence during difficult conversations (I do a good job but I can and want to do much better.
• Letting go. Letting go of those things outside of my control and being at peace with them

11/21/19:

• When having the much needed conversation I've been striving to have with Bella and Eddie, I realized that there is no need to ever hold the truth back. Be fully honest. At all times. It will allow for liberation and free living because of it
• "Transparency allows for opportunity of truthfulness, receiving and giving without exception to what can be." (AJD III)
• I'm loving my failures in life right now. I hit a breakthrough with being open, transparent, and honest. My burn rate for money is running low and I am transitioning the business. I have so much to learn and I AM SO DAMN EXCITED ABOUT ALL OF IT.
• Remember that, intention, consistency, following your intuition, and transparency create waves of positive effects. Keep living and learning Ant.
• Make sure to take time to organize your thoughts and recoup yourself. This is a big transition time for you. Time to make some noise and spread more of my light.

12/11/19:

• Staying up all night to study for a final and being late to work. I felt flustered that day (obviously because I had a lack of sleep) but also because I saw myself in the mirror. I didn't like what I saw during that period.
• He was untruthful, non-transparent, and rushed. I am never like that…….But I am.
• The last full moon of the decade is tomorrow and before that occurs, each human was revealed something about themselves that they need to change in order to grow into their next body for 2020.
• For me it's: transparancy, belief, and acceptance (ALL STARTING FROM WITHIN)……who gives a fuck what other people think…..take a dose of your own medicine
• Impress yourself, not others.

12/29/19:

• Detaching from God for about a week while home and not making time for myself
• But in a way, this isn't a failure even though my habits fell somewhat off
• Since, I sacrificed and made a choice to prioritize family first
• However, God should never be neglected. My time with him is a must and my rejection of him showed my insecurity, fear of facing them, and more

2/13/20:

• The way I led the DB & Co original team and that I:
• Didn't have a clear vision and direction
• Didn't internal believe in what I was doing (because I didn't know exactly what I was doing)

3/5/20 (Jason @ Netflix in LA):

• Don't expect anything from others.
• Follow your intuition Anthony.
• Always ask before you expect - especially with people you don't know. Overcommunication is certainly better than under communication
• “Importance, to me, creates the energy of urgency. You should prioritize those things of importance and give them urgency instead of allowing urgent things to become important.” (David Meltzer)
• Have clarity on my intention. Ask myself, "Why is it and what is it that I'm doing?" before I do it
• "Be interested, not interesting." (David Meltzer)

Things are becoming more self oriented for me, meaning, I realized my failures aren't failures in reality. Rather, they stem from a habit or nonsconsious thought. So, I'm diving deep into the root cause of things in order to learn the most - to be the best me possible. With that in mind:

4/30/20 (driving to Philly to spend 2 days in my apartment):

• My conscious thoughts while driving revealed my nonsconscious behavior to me. A couple wrong turns, a couple negative thoughts, and eventually I was dwelling and worried about my financial burdens and my next moves, as I have to make BIG decisions soon.
• And yes, keep in mind that these thoughts only lasted for 2 hours tops. But it's that 2 hours that revealed the most. Some might see this is a small issue. I see it as the biggest goldmine of all.
• After talking with close friends in my challenge network (not planned) and myself, I realized that these thoughts were unnecessary. Comparison and worry will get me nowhere.
• Solutions (new addition to this book of failures);
• Be grateful.
• Know that my goals are bigger than these problems.
• Getting over this at a nonconscious level will allow me to be stronger for bigger obstacles ahead.
• Two quotes that I resonated at the time with were:
• "They say that a warrior is born when a man chooses his path, and accepts the suffering that comes with his choice."
• "God's will, will not take you…..where God's will cannot sustain you."
• Get strong in my mind, and if I don't deal with it myself or with God, go to my challenge network (I already have this layout set and system second nature in me).
• Control the controllable
• Never, ever underestimate the power of a laugh or smile
• I started the "Reflect, Reinforce, Rejuvenate" "Self" Evaluation that will be held on a quarterly and yearly system on the current date of 5/3/20 too.
• I unplugged for 48 hours and got inside my own dome for that alotted time period

6/26/20:

• I got scammed on eBay. I was trying to sell a bike and flip it but the one buyer that I had scammed me. He had me buy eBay gift cards and I sent them 3 preloaded eBay gift cards for $100 each. I should've know what I was getting trapped into. Ignorance is not bliss in this case because my unknowing put me in a bind.

I used money that I needed and worked for all to be taken away from me.

In a massive way, I learned a major lessons from it. Multiple actually. There are the following as goes:

• The world is tyranny (as Jordan Peterson said) so trust no one at first.
• However, I’m an optimistic person so that probably won’t stick to my blueprint
• Stop being too nice to others that don’t deserve it. It will really get you hurt bro.
• Trying to make money fast will always be a bad recipe. It leads to nothing good
• Get rich slow. That's it. That's the strategy that was known but never always intact by me.
• Be cautious of all I do and never believe anything on the Internet.
• I'm learning a lot about this world. I'm done with being kind to others who take advantage of me. I'm done doing things for others because I feel bad. That is the last toxic thought to get rid of. New 21-day program for that will be starting Monday (6/28/20)
• Solution:
• Don't trust anyone at first meeting
• Always be cautious
• Take things slow. Patience!
• Trust your gut and don't rush into things.

8/26/20:

• I must refrain from interjecting myself in certain circumstances where silence is better used and I am better left off objectively observing (uses: self-awareness, self-control, focus, understanding others, empathy, release of control)
• Applied well the next day when there was an argument between dad and zach
• I only interjected to say one thing and that one thing was powerful and planted a seed in many. It still has me thinking today. It also flowed through me. It was very much in the present moment.

9/10/20:

• Just do what you know best in this moment. Just do what is right in its own right. Let it be done. Do it well. Move on.
• Could've done a better job at ntuitively following the notion I was told about myself because I knew it was right for me - intra/entrepreneur mix (failure to trust gut note also recorded on 9/24/17 (you can't do everything at once), 3/15/18, 4/5/17
• No tech devices past 8 pm at night so I can go to bed better and easier and sooner. Good systems makes good sleep. Following your values and abide by your principles Ant. You're doing something for a reason. Don't deviate because of an excuse. (not going to bed on time, not releasing control for doing other work and doing what is best for me also recorded on 12/11/19, 10/25/17 (say "no" more often - boundaries))
• (Just to re-emphasize this was a bulleted list failure from before)
• 6/24/17: "Learn from the mistakes I write down"
• [update on 11/24/19]  DO THIS MORE

On 11/20/20, after a week of selfish, pity, bullshit thinking, I thought:

8/8/21:

🙏🏻[8/11/21] Reflecting on Learnings from the Dream BIG Marketing Recent Discussion; Team; and More